this feeling has got to go

i think i made a mistake. one of my professors is meeting with a project leader of mine tomorrow and i'm afraid all of my academic and engineering insufficiencies will drown me. because not only is this guy my professor, he's also a major department head, he's also one of the few who has a very direct say in whether or not i should get money to go to guatemala, he's also going to see how my project is lacking, and inform my project leader.

and i realize in the end nothing matters but God (thank goodness), but what about tomorrow? i just need more time.....

i hate anxiousness. i hate wondering if i'm really doing the best i can, because that probably means i'm not.